Thursday, 19 July 2018


I've been on estrogen and progesterone for the past five years because I kind of lost my mind when menopause first hit me five years ago.  But you're only supposed to stay on it for five years and my time is up so I've been decreasing the dose for the past few months until this past Monday when I took the last patch off.

So now the hot flashes are back in full force, enough to make me want to vomit last night.  We took the dog for a walk and it's hot as hell here.  When we got back home to our lovely hot house I sat down and had a hot flash which heated me up enough to feel sick.  It passed but it's a very unpleasant feeling.

I also feel foggy and maybe a little irritable, maybe a lot irritable.  I have a problem with my temper anyway which I try to keep in check but when my hormones are out of whack it feels like trying to rein in a dragon, a fiery, pissed off dragon.  So there's that.

Otherwise life is fine.  I need more exercise but keep finding excuses to not exercise when the best thing for me would be exercise.

I'm training a young nurse to work in our interventional radiology suite and found it difficult to focus yesterday.  She had lots of questions which I tried to answer while also assisting the radiologist.  Mistakes were made, by me.  Nothing to do with the patient, just with me not paying attention to what was going on because I was distracted.  I kept handing the rad the wrong instruments.  He's an extremely kind man and when I apologized to him later he said not to worry.  We're a team.  I'm helped him when he first started and today he was able to help me.

So I'm not losing my marbles but I am having a hard time dealing with distractions, something the big guy would agree with as we had a long conversation about this last night.  He's not wrong but it's hard to hear the truth.  Neither is this a new problem with me, I've been like this my whole life.

I'm off today so I'm taking the dog for a nice long walk before it gets too hot.


12 comments:

  1. I've been on some sort of bio-identical hormones for a long time and I don't know how I'd function without them. I get all of the symptoms you've described plus urinary incontinence (not terrible, but enough to really mess with my life) and of course absolutely no interest in sex. So do we live our lives in a fog of surface of the sun heat and soggy panties and no desire for intimacy or do we just go ahead and kill ourselves with the hormones? I don't know. I do not know.

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    1. It's good to know I'm not the only one who suffers like this.

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  2. Pretty much from the day of my first period I have had “lady troubles”. Periods that were so bad I would vomit. Super heavy and so painful. One time I threw up at work. I remember another time having to lay down on the front steps of my high school waiting to be picked up. Thank god eveyone was in class. Then it was pregnancy. I lost 25 pounds with both pregnancies from Hyperemesis gravidarum. I was hospitalized more times than I could count from dehydration. Then onto peri menopause which started at 38. Oh, I had my tubes removed because of my mom’s history with ovarian cancer. I did, praise the lord, have a hysterectomy. Best fucking thing ever.

    Now, I have acne and I am growing a beard both at the same time.

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    1. I like to grown my moustache out for Movember:)

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    2. Hahaha. You two crack me up. MOVEMBER!!! If you somehow could make yourself exercise a little....see if it helps.....that helped me soooooo much it was life changing. No more hot flashes.

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  3. is there another alternative? bio identical hormones or something more benign?

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    1. I talked to my doc, she said it will get better. I may be a little impatient. The heat doesn't help but today is better, we had a massive storm last night and it's much cooler.

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  4. Not minimizing your discomfort with my other comment. It’s no frickin fun and I’m sorry you are having to deal with it AGAIN

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    1. I use humor to deal with shit and moustaches qualify as shit:)

      I do try to exercise but I am so good at finding excuses to not exercise. I'm active all day at work and don't get home until 5 or 6 pm but I know that it would help.

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  5. Mother Nature is truly a bitch. 5 years of menopause. After all we suffer as women all of our lives, this is truly the final smack to the head. I hope things get better. I know what you're going through. I'm living in the same fog and it's infuriating. And having to use "female" problems as an excuse is just mortifying. Hang on. Breathe. Know that I'm with you and sending love and strength. xx

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    1. The fog isn't as bad this time as it was five years ago but the hot flashes are horrible, especially in the heat. Today is better.

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  6. I hear the estrogen blocker I'll be put on will give me super hot flashes. Joy!

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