I worked in the garden yesterday which always helps my soul. I have only a few annuals in pots but they're right outside my kitchen window so I get to see them all the time. They cheer me up.
Most of the backyard is shaded for a good part of the day so I've been adding hostas and astilbes and moving ferns around to fill in empty spots. We have a lot of trees in the backyard which suck up a lot of moisture so I've been adding mulch around the perennials, cedar mulch which always smells so wonderful.
The big guy put up this gate for me this year. I love it. It makes the garden feel welcoming. The old gate was solid wood, weighed a lot, never latched properly and hung at a slant. This one is light and beautiful.
I'm going for a long walk after I post this, before it gets too hot. Tonight we're going out for supper with friends and tomorrow my in-laws will be over for supper. Rest and relaxation.
In other news my son informed me that I am going to be a grandmother. I hope to god that both he and his girlfriend stop drinking. He says they have, I pray they have. A baby deserves better than to be born with fetal alcohol syndrome. I'm torn. When I got pregnant with me son, nobody was happy. It was not a good way to bring a baby into the world and I don't want history to repeat itself. I have to find a way to welcome this baby into the world despite the lies and the drugs and the alcohol. A fine balance I'm guessing, something I'm not very good at. I'm more of an all or nothing kind of person, given to extremes the big guy would say. And I am. I love with all my heart but once you betray my trust, it's so difficult for me to ever trust again or forgive.