Monday, 18 December 2017

I'm off work for the next two weeks, trying to keep myself together.  I still feel depressed but at least I don't have to deal with work and all of the shit that happens there on a regular basis.  I'm trying to be kind to myself and gentle.  I'm walking the dog.  Working on a quilt which keeps my mind and hands busy, especially when I have to pick apart seams. 

I need to find a counselor to share my story with but that is kind of overwhelming when you feel depressed because I don't feel like telling my whole sad, pathetic story to another counselor again.  The meds may be helping, too early to tell yet.  The sun is shining today which helps too.

And so it goes.


  1. Sending love. Your photos are exquisite. Finding a good counselor in 2014 and gradually telling my story to a counselor who could actually help me has made all the difference in the world. I was off work from my hospital job frequently between 1994 and 2003 due to the stress of family issues that overwhelmed me. That was the darkest time in my life. I am grateful to my family doctor for making that time off possible.

    Kind wishes,

  2. I'm so happy to hear you have this time off. The holidays are rough. So is winter. I have had a number of counselors over my life, some excellent, some just competent. However, they all helped me when I needed help, and I learned from each one of them. It sounds like you are on the right path.

  3. I am so glad you are getting some time off. Your field of work takes it’s toll. Very least, being away can give you some days to sleep in.

    I can’t remember if I told you or if I mentioned it on my blog but I have finally accessed long term counselling for women who have dealt with domestic abuse. I’ve also found online Al Anon groups because my life has become unmanageable.

    One moment at a time, dear one. Please, please be kind to yourself. How about this? How about we treat ourselves the way we would treat each other for just the next two weeks. Let’s just get through December.

  4. Two weeks off to be kind to yourself sounds lovely. I'm sorry that you've been depressed and hope it lifts, that the remedies you're using "work," and that you -- well -- move along, I guess. I find myself feeling way more down than usual and think it's because of the general State of Things here. It's just so relentless -- even my relationship with my parents is strained because of politics. However much we tell ourselves that nothing is permanent, it feels so. Thank you for your honesty and for your breathtaking photos.

  5. I hope things will start feeling less bleak soon Debs. You are very much in my thoughts xx Jos

  6. Thank you for your always thoughtful comments on my blog. I am sorry you’re struggling right now. It’s a hard season, everything we ache for is magnified. I am glad you’re taking some time for yourself. Holding you in my thoughts. Peace and love.