Saturday, 29 October 2016
My ticker is giving me a hard time. It's unhappy with how I've lived my life and it's now protesting by throwing out PVCs on a regular basis. These PVCs are usually benign but they leave me feeling light headed and short of breath. The most common cause is stress.
I live a life filled with stress and anxiety. If there isn't something to worry about, I find something. I feel bad about the past and worry endlessly about the future, all the while missing out on right now. My heart is telling me it's time to change, to let go of my worry but I don't know how to; it's so deeply ingrained in my character.
I guess I need to find a way.