Annie is a seven year old beagle with food allergies. Who knew dogs could be allergic to foods. They eat shit after all. She is a lovely dog though, good natured and good with cats which is a plus.
I continue to think about death more than is probably good for me. Another friend emailed me last week to let me know that she's just had a mass removed from her abdomen and that she would be visiting me at work. I do love my work but I truly wish that cancer did not exist.
I find myself often thinking about my girlfriend, saying goodbye to her girls, saying goodbye to her friends and family, to her husband and I wonder how she can get up each day. But it's not like she has a choice. I miss her already and she's not even dead and then I feel bad. I know it's called anticipatory grief but it's still grief and that's exactly what it feels like.
I try to remember there are always things to be thankful for. I remember when the kids were little, sometimes the only thing I was grateful for was that I didn't yell at them that day.
Today the things I'm grateful for:
The sunshine and warm weather.
Fall leaves and cool nights.
A full moon.
A weekend in the mountains surrounded by beauty.
Friends and hugs.
What are you thankful for today?