I think the forgetting and learning is part of the secret of living. Accepting that we have to relearn everyday; admitting that we are powerless over and over again. I don't know though. I really don't. As you are, I am trying.
I wander off the path, repeatedly and then just keep stepping back on. I think equanimity is a journey more than a destination.
I try so hard to keep on the straight and narrow path that sometimes it makes me crazy and I have to veer off just to keep my sanity.
i wake up and half the time i don't even know the path, but i have to make a distinction between the pain and crisis of the current world and my own little world, which is easier and safer and lucky. i'm trying not to think as much, except when it's helpful to think my way out of another jam.you are a good person, deb. you deserve equanimity.lovekj