Monday, 21 October 2013
My mother would be horrified by my previous post. I know my mum loved me and I loved my mum. She was deeply imperfect, as am I. For all of the negatives, there were positives as well. It seems I forget that so easily, part of my nature sadly, or just part of being human.
My mother taught me to laugh and to find humor in most everything. When she was child she was often sent out of the room for laughing.
She was the black sheep of the family, leaving England to follow a Canadian she fell in love with. She didn't fit in anymore after she left England. In Canada, she was English and in England, she was Canadian. We have that in common, being the misfit in our families.
She loved animals, especially dogs and had a dog until she couldn't live in her own home anymore.
She taught me not just to garden but to love gardening. I never did love roses the way she did though. I think they reminded her of home in England and to me they're just thorny bushes, although I do love the smell of rugosa roses.
Mum taught me to love walking as well, probably part of being English as well. She was a great believer in the health benefits of fresh air and walks. She hated not being able to walk like she used to.
Mum also taught me that family is everything, that you take care of each other. All of mum's kids moved back home at some time in our adult lives, sometimes bringing with us children, husbands or girlfriends. When Mum was my age she had a thirteen year old and an eleven year old at home as well as her grown daughter and her three year old grandson. She wanted to keep her family close to her, maybe because her own family was so far away.
Mum taught me to bake, to knit, to sew and to can. I helped her make jams, jellies, pickled beets and pickled onions. I could never knit as well as she could. When I was a child I thought that all women could knit like my mother but I was wrong. She was an amazing knitter. When she died she still had a toque on her needles that I finished up for her.
So she gave me the good with the bad, that's how it works I guess. It's like our own bodies. Our cells have the ability to mutate, which is a good thing because that has allowed human beings to evolve over time. However, the ability to mutate also means that cancer cells can form. But we can't have it both ways, one comes with the other. The good with bad, inseparable, human, imperfect, loving and lovable.